I got a job outside the home.
I am a support staff sub at the area school district.
Sometimes a get three calls a week. Sometimes I get zero calls a week.
This week I have been a secretary and a special ed assistant.
Every time they call me I have a minor freak out. I never know where I will go or what I will be doing.
Every day is a first day at a job.
I can say 'no' to the computerized caller...and sometimes I am too scared or off kilter to say yes.
What would make me off kilter?
They call at 5:00am
Or they call and say to be there in half an hour and I am at Target.
And since it is not a person, I can't discuss the assignment.
And I like to ask questions.
The school schedule (Katie hours) is one of the main reasons I chose to look for a job at a school.
Besides I have a little experience teaching and helping kiddos. Yesterday I did a lot of reading and counting and it felt very natural to be doing that.
So the working has been nice. The people and the kids have been nice.
But the five am wake up calls are not my cup of tea. Especially because I wake up at five and do not get a call on those days!! And I can not get back to sleep.
I have applied to a more steady position at a school l like very much...but I have not heard back about it. I hope that one works out. I think I would be much less nervous working at the same place with the same people at the same times....
Going back to work after being away rattles my nerves. I can't wait to get home.
The days seem incredibly long.
Katie is my biggest cheerleader so that is sweet. She is only inconvenienced by having to find a ride to school if I have to go earlier than she does and she does not mind that at all.
I think she is proud of me.
I'm not proud tho, more in a state of shock or disbelief that I have a job.
It's too hard for me to explain why this has been such a big deal for me.
But I'm coming around and accepting this new role I need to play.
“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”
Alan W. Watts
A very favorite dance.
Singing in the Rain is about change...Don and Cosmo are learning to speak well since they are going from Silent Movies to Talkies. :o)
Encourage one another,